Being as old as you feel

         Dont let life pass you by

I’ve been thinking a lot today. Thought process is such a powerful thing and I think we forget how the brain is such an incredible organ. Well. I do definitely. Everything is centred and controlled here and thinking this through made sense to me today.

If you feel negative, no doubt your day will become negative. Positive thinking is so important and I find I struggle to do this at times.

When we are having a negative day we become lethargic, grumpy and not interested In what we should be. Life is passing us by and we automatically feel older by feeling down and tired.

Positive thinking helps the brain to engage youth and happiness!

Enjoy this! Think positive and stay young

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Little bugger

Good afternoon everyone,

I thought I would just give you a little insight to let you know how my Wednesday morning is going so far.

I have finally had a chance to sit down with a cup of tea after dealing with my little madams whinging, tantrums and attitude this morning. Don’t get me wrong, I Iove this little person to absolute bits but sometimes I do just want to hibernate in bed for the day when she’s in this mood!

Breakfast time was a bit of a disaster, she woke up on a bit of a high this morning here there and everywhere and off her cereal went flying from the table all over the floor and table…Step one, mummy clears up. Then an episode of a tantrum as I got her some juice, which is a treat, and off she screams telling me she wants water…Step two, deep breaths mummy. Walking out the room today has proved to to be very difficult, I go to the kitchen to wash up and all I hear is a scream and a little person coming bounding after me grabbing my leg pulling me back…step three, reassuring mummy. Now for lunchtime, she is sat down calmly for a minute, fingers crossed guys!

Anyone having similar circumstances today? Please give me strength 🙂

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Friendship

You’ve got a friend in me

There are many times I sit and think about my past and think of how different things could be. If I had gone about things in different ways and the thought of ‘what if‘,  

I feel looking back at the moment is something I need to make me stronger. I have felt happy, cared for, special, invincible, crazy and on top of the world as well as hurt, angry, let down, fooled and misplaced. All of these feelings caused by Friendship.

I see myself as a friendly person who would go out of there way to ensure others are ok and when needed i would be there. I never found this reciprocated by many and to be honest never expected it to be until I look back and think friends? What friends?

I am not a negative person but to me I hit a low. The effort and time I put in to make sure everyone else was ok and everything was made easy for them, I was the one stressing and over analysing situations just so they were ok which is what friends, I assumed, would do for one another. 

The realisation came after an amazing turn in my life. I met a boy fell in love very quickly and unexpectedly we had a baby, too early for sure and especially unexpectadly. We split when she was 6 months old and my world fell apart. We couldn’t adapt to this new life together and still young ourselves we decided on a mutual split. I struggled. But this change I can only describe as incredible and a solid life lesson! 

My whole world has become a different place and with that I learnt my friends were not who I thought. I was no longer the girl to go partying every night, the girl who could just drop everything and say I’m in! I feel alone sometimes. I was always the girl surrounded by friends and suddenly I understand why I’m not. I wasn’t a ‘friend’, I was an acquaintance. 

I have a handful of people now who I would class as good friends and I know have looked after me. I am eternally grateful for them and treasure them. I just feel alone in my situation at times. I wish I was that girl with lots of friends around me all the time so I didn’t feel so lonely? As a mum we can’t always do what we want to do especially when working aswell. I am learning maybe I mixed with the wrong people? Sure I still speak to a few from before my daughter was born but not much. I had my priorities and I stick to them.

My baby is my whole world and sometimes yes I can admit I forget what I have and how lucky I am. I possibly could do more, I’m not a terrible mother but I sure have my off days! Sometimes I wish to God I had friends who could help me through this part of life with a girly night once in a while or just another mum to talk to in my position to relate too? 

I was always outgoing and still am just in other ways. I take pride in hearing my baby girl call me mum, the terrible twos have hit and I do struggle I am not ashamed to admit, but I would not change things for the world! She is my everything 🙂 

If you have a similar story or can relate to me I would love to hear from you 🙂 speak soon, 

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